Woke up and did another yoga routine. Apparently I lack a lot of balance. I started to record myself drawing another drawabox homework assignment. My mental state was still negative after reading up on current events, existential dread and being aware of my elevated, but still racialized position in society.
Probably not a good idea to remind myself the world is burning while from a position of relative yet constrainted safety.
Verbalizing and scribing my awareness of these facts motivates me to push through these negative feeling, no matter the cost. It is times like these it’s important to practice gratitude for what is going well in life, despite my personality stating otherwise.
You have your family, you have a place to sleep, you have your physical and (situational) mental health. It is these small things that I’ve taken for granted in the past; that are now used to reclaim my autonomy.
With that in mind I proceeded to draw after avoiding it for 3 days.
I pushed through and finished what I could art wise. Since I’m starting at an earlier shift, I decided to upload some earlier drawabox assignments I had completed to my youtube page.
I’m are taking a tolerance break to reset my sleep habits. In doing so I’ve shifted my focus to crafting these posts better. I’ve been able to add some SEO after years of owning one. I have specifically bookmarked articles that give some tips on how to monetize writing.
Even though I’ve had a personal blog for years, I’ve never gotten enough traffic to get paid for it. That’s one of the reasons I’ve started cross posting to medium.
Already since metering my stories I’ve made about 18 cents. Paltry I know, but it’s a huge accomplishment given my personality. It shows that people see my thoughts(validation) and I don’t find myseld ruminnating as often. Progress?
It was the first time I’ve been paid for my own work and it’s liberating. This small step just shows that with enough time, patience and effort I can make money outside renting my time.
This is another step towards freedom.