Conditional Humanity: my personal publication
This morning I decided to dive in and make my own publication on medium. Truthfully, I am afraid becuase I don’t know what I’m doing. My goal for writing these posts is to find a way out of working for other people. Years of following advice that I thought would get me ahead were actually obstacles to finding my true purpose. I survived a system that says I’m inherently worthless yet still has need to rent my time for it’s own benefit.
My humanity is questioned when I don’t live down to it’s assumptions of my being. The global narrative for the last five hundred years is that someone with my “Black” skin, should never rise above their inferior position. And when we do find ways around this infantile narrative, we are destroyed for not staying in our place. My body and potential must be killed to alleviate the collective white inferiority complex that subjugates billions.
The ideology of projection fears retribution
I know that the white inferiority complex fears retribution for the injustices of the past and present. Whiteness isn’t biological, it’s ideological. It is an ideology of social dominators and their authoritarian enablers. Those who are incapable of change and growth are holding back the greater potential of Humanity. It is the justification of the most evil abuses as “civilizing”.
We are held back by the “morally inferior” becuase they fear the loss of their status. I have no empathy for that loss.; for I have been on the receiving end of this “white deferrment”. I don’t like it and no one should ever have to face those indignities.
I’m tired of being defined by people’s fears
In order to get around the physical, econonomic and social contraints of society; I create. Creativity is the one act of retribution that can never be stopped. It is a way of rebuilding the parts of myself that were broken. In writing about my experiences I’m move further away from the insecurity at the heart of whiteness ideology. I no longer wish to be limited by those who fear themselves and everything around them.
Most of this will come off as rambling and I agree. That’s the amount of damage done by navigating a system designed to make sure that when you fail, you never try to rise again. But I’m still here and I know that scares people.
So while they choose fear over and over again; I’ll be trying to make the world a bit better one post at a time.